Sometimes I feel alone, Like I have no one in my life. But its all because that someone who isn't there.. Its like whenever he aint here I have an empty space in my heart. I don't love him, I miss the place he filled when he was still here.. I don't know how can people be with each other when they don't love each other. I cant even say hi to a person i don't like.. People are so weird nowadays. Or its just me thats different. Ive been in pain for so many times .. For too long that I forgot how to have a normal smile, a real life, a good time. I sometimes wish I could rewind my hole life , but then I think.. And I thank God for making me wiser then Ever.. But sometimes life is hard , and its okay because when there's always ups and downs wherever you at. Like a game. But in real life there's no reset bottom. Theres a game over. Never give up , because remember its not about how much you can get hit, its about how many times you can get hit and keep getting forward.Today I realized something while hearing my first philosophy lesson. Im not just a writer , nor a song writer, I'm want to be a philosopher.
:oIve stopped caring .. About you, about them , everyone else , I stopped feeling .. Feeling love, passion, excitement, I've stopped showing .. My tears, my emotions, myself. No one can really understand what Im doing, how I'm managing to live with no one around me, not even myself, and i cant help it but to miss a few people, but I never show it. All I'm doing is escaping , not from humans but of the fear of loosing another person or thing that I cared about. I don't want to be missed nor to be loved. I want to run. Far away from everyone and everything. I want to see who will follow me , or ask about me. And in this world full of hate , few are the ones who still know how to love. I know how to love. And i know how to not love. But my only problem , i don't know hot to stop loving what I've already loved too much. And funny part? I dunno what to do about it. So I drop it and feel the pain like always. I stand there , with a smile on my face , walking , running , with friends or so , but the truth is , I cry. Deep down? Each night? I cry myself to sleep wondering what have I done to deserve to be this miserable. I don't want anyone to feel like I'm pathetic because I know people are critical , but I can't help but to be depressed sometimes. I a lost.. In a world full of lies, betrayal and hate. Keep smiling people <3
I Loved You .. You Loved Me .. And another Girl We Had a Fight ... You Loved The Other Girl. We Made Up ... You Said You Loved Me We Had Another Fight .. I Was Still In Love With You.
It's Funny How The Ones Who Don't Love Us Are The One Who We Love The Most Guys These Days Dunno How Treat a women , They Wana Have Fun Then Throw Them Like Shit. For Every Guy Who Wants To Have Fun .. I Just Wana Tell You That One Day , a Special Somenone Will Show Up In Your Life and Will Treat You The same Way You Treated These Poor Girls and Good Luck With That , But I hope Yo'll Get Hurt just 1% Of The Hurt I've Been Threw.